Why I Dare To Do Nothing - Mongolia MPD Chronicles

What do you do while waiting on God's promise that has to come within a deadline yet God tells you to do nothing? Can you really do nothing when you know that your testimony is on the line? That's exactly my dilemma right now.

I'm Php 15K short of funds for my short-term mission trip to Mongolia. Around last week, I feel prompted to just trust God that He will complete my MPD. However, I wasn't sure if that prompt came from the Lord or if it's just the work of the enemy trying to hinder me from reaching my goal. But deep inside, I feel like being asked to step out of the boat and walk on water where there's just a lot of uncertainties. So I stopped approaching people when I started to feel that call, even though I wasn't really sure if that's from God. However, came Thursday, 7 days from my deadline, I came across  verses in the Bible for that day's Bible Reading Plan which loudly spoke into my situation.

That’s it. You’re not “doing” anything; you’re simply calling out to God, trusting him to do it for you. That’s salvation. With your whole being you embrace God setting things right, and then you say it, right out loud: “God has set everything right between him and me!” Scripture reassures us, “No one who trusts God like this—heart and soul—will ever regret it.” (Somewhere in Romans 10, The Msg)

Although the verses refer to Salvation, those words were like a confirmation in my heart to just be still and do nothing. And how timely that the verses I was going to share on that coming Sunday was about obedience, i.e, Obedience puts us in a position to receive God's promise. That was a big warning sign for me to really stay still and not get my hands into work!

But I get feeds from Viber about my team mates getting support here and there with the partners they are approaching. At first it was really encouraging but when I realize everyone's moving forward but  me, I can't help but start to doubt if God really intended me to just keep still. Besides, isn't approaching partners to share the vision one of the goals of MPD? And is that being excellent to do nothing knowing that you have a deadline to beat? I hear myself now screaming inside my head "Could you just let me do something, Lord???" I have a couple of people in my head that I could still approach or follow up. Yet I know in my heart that that would be disobedience. Plus I know that what pleases God is faith and not excellence!

So what can I do now? And then I was reminded to say in response "Praise God." Yeah that's what I'll do. Praise God when he has called me to focus my eyes on Jesus even though the situation is a bit rocky. Focus my eyes on Jesus knowing that He is faithful to bless me when I obey. Look beyond this deadline and be in faith that I will be in Mongolia despite the oppositions. And most of all, trust that whether I reach 100% or not, God is in control. :)