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Sunday, March 29, 2015

When Attacked Emotionally

I thought it was just the time of the month when the women hormones manifest big time. March 29 was quite a busy day, leaving home at Pque at 8am, prepare some spiel for the Tithes and Offerings exhortation, 11 am service, lunch with the girls, Eizza's baby shower, final exam at RTU and review for my 2nd certification exam for Microsoft. But the ending of my very fruitful day is furthermore sweet was I was expecting to go home with my family. However for some strange randomness, it took so long for a Boni Derecho jeepney to arrive for me to ride to EDSA. Even worse is that it took an hour (I feel like it was that long) for me to ride an air-condition bus going to Bicutan. Not that there wasn't any that passes by. But the first one drove by without even stopping for me. Had to wait some more time and I also missed the second bus. I think I was already out of my mind to see 2 more pass by without stopping for me. I can't describe the betrayal I feel when I was so excited to go home and yet I cant get a ride.

Right at that moment I was already have tantrum-like thoughts towards God. I know that He could've done in His sovereign power some normal thing so that at least one of those 4 buses stopped by for me. I was already shouting in my heart, wanting to cry, doubting God's love. I couldn't believe I was starting to doubt God's love again for me just because I couldn't get a ride home. Finally when I was already forcing my tears to fall so I can release some hurt and disappointment at least, a bus stopped for me. I was so emotionally stressed that I was crying in the bus. All I can remember is myself saying I'm so tired... Tired of the too many things I'm doing, tired of all the challenges and testing, tired of the disappointments given to me by other people (yeah that's very specific to AJ and BJ backing out from our Sagada trip). I'm emotionally and physically tired.

I got to SM Bicutan and went to Zagu for a comfort drink but as kind of expected, they're already closed. I went to Bon Appetea because I really wanted a comfort drink to calm me down. But they don't have pearls. It was such a big deal that my expectations weren't met by a lot of things/people.

When I get home the drama still continued and I still kept on crying to God. But at the end of it I was thankful to God for my wonderful emotions. I was asking for forgiveness for my emotional tantrums. And the experience is over.

So I thought. How timely that in the book I was reading...

There are several points that arise from any analysis of the Fall narrative and Eden... 
Third, the underlying impulse of that external force is aimed at undermining and despoiling God's handiwork, and its chief weapons are the assertion of autonomy and DOUBT OF GOD'S LOVE.

The enemy got me there. I doubted God's love. And I realized it wasn't just a hormonal attack but an attack of the enemy. But I know that I'm over it because I feel God's love so much today. I passed the certification that I only reviewed for 1 day. God's grace! Love you Lord!

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Where to next?


Beginning the moment I fully accepted the vision to travel last January 2, 2015, never a day passed without a thought that feeds the desire larger. Thoughts vary from: new places being added to my list as I scroll a couple of travel accounts i follow on instagram, to deciding whether I'd like a companion in this expedition, to linking how God might use this desire for His glory, even to doubt whether is this really possible... Can i make it through? Will I die during the journey? Will I be able to handle new relationships well, or will I ever get new ones? How the heck will this happen next year without a large amount of savings? A lot if questions but the fire inside my heart feels so sure it's going to happen. So will you help me God?

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Coron's Extra Mile: What You've Never Heard or Seen of In Palawan, Philippines



I couldn't agree more with travelers who voted that the title "World's Top Island" belongs to Palawan, besting other wondrous piece of water-surrounded-lands on earth in the Conde Nast Traveler’s Readers’ Choice Awards for 2014. I have been dreaming to experience with my own naked eyes the beauty of Coron, Palawan because it really looks lustful to the eyes of a wanderer like me. Two years since I conceived that bucket list item, I still didn't have the money but I got an incentive at work allowing me the privilege to tick off this Island from my list. Oh thank you, Microsoft Philippines for paying for my Coron adventure. :)

There are countless travel blogs about Palawan ready to be served by Google (Did I just mention Microsoft and Google in the same blog? Haha) or your mobile travel app at your fingertips. Replicable itineraries, places to go to, restaurants to eat at, hotels to stay in, where to go and how to go, costings, and the likes. This one, however, will not enroll from that roster of documentaries, else I will bore myself in writing this knowing that you have already read most details in the previous blog you checked or the next one you're gonna click. But as my title goes, I'm 99.9% sure you haven't read or heard or experienced. Ready, be? :)

What I describe as the Extra Mile in Coron is not the breathtaking Islands, lakes, coves nor beaches but the guy assigned by Calamian Travel and Tours to be my traveling group's Tour Guide. If the picture of an island tour guide that comes to your mind is a Palawan local whose skin is darkened by the sun's everyday rays, sometimes confidently communicating in English in the local accent, then you got the initial scenario right. But unlike any other hired local tour companions that I have encountered in the past who would really just show you where the way is and that's it, our tour guide in Coron adds a colorful paint to our adventures. Roy proved to be genuinely an enthusiast and an amazing Palawan local.

He tells historical facts charmingly keeping you from getting bored. (Who doesn't, on history?)
Yes, he gave us Coron's geographical background interestingly in good english :)
With his ice-breaking jokes, he uplifts some tension caused by the 2-hour delay in our island-hopping trip.

He guides us life-vested, scared to drown non-swimmers to the best spots.
Friendly fishies from Skeleton Wreck
This is me and Era in a funny position about to enter the cave! We got out safely, by the way :)

Tirelessly, he pulls us back to the boat when the waves are more than we can conquer (and reminding us not to drink salt water like a salt drink... sounds like soft drink!)
He swims so excellently that you'd feel safe around him when in the deep waters.

Illegal must be a dangerous word, but he does break some rules so we can experience holding a giant clam he fetched from the corals of Cap's Point. 
The giant clam he borrowed from the reef so we can experience touching it :)


This is him showing us the the giant clam in close encounters :)
But he sent it back safely, don't charge him! :)


He patiently guides us up and down some peaks though he's gone the trails probably a hundred times.
Like a dolphin, he enjoyingly performs tricks to entertain us like diving thru a deep rock formation's openings.


Dive trick at Kayangan lake

With willingness, he takes excellent pictures of us, really taking the extra mile just to get the best angles!
So how do you imagine he took this shot? :)
The focus may have not set right but the angle is amazing. He took it from inside a cave!

He takes additional requests outside his job description... like handle valuables when in the waters so they don't get wet, or carry items while trekking up and down hills or even assist each step of our trek.

Like a chef, he prepared our lunch while at the boat.
Roy does the cooking too! And we enjoyed our lunch by the bay :)



I sound like I'm promoting him, and yes I do promote him. But the joy of enumerating all these is the revelation that the list of extra miles that makes Roy different from other tour guide, and consequently that Roy makes Coron different than  other trips I've been to, leads me to discovering amazing attributes of the God that I know... Unlike how many other people perceive him, the truth is the God is,..
Full of adventures and challenges
A source of security and enjoyment
Brimming with surprising ideas or revelations
Bringing you difficult roads but at the end leads to breathtaking experiences.
Never leaves you nor forsakes you.


I had a short conversation with Roy after the trip to thank him for making the tour extra fun. Eventually, I found out that he's a Christian, too. Then I had no wonder why he reflected the characters that our God possesses. :)

P.S. If you're having second thoughts of getting Calamian Travel and Tours to set your itinerary, I assure you that it will make your trip worth the money you paid. And if you can, request for Roy's service. Then comment on this post if you have also experienced Coron's Extra Mile :)

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

My Moonriver Prayer

Found myself almost posting my prayer tonight in Facebook but I was in doubt so I reverted to my month-long forgotten online journal (aka blog). My intention was to share to my virtual world my longing to Travel the World and Being with my Huckleberry Finn. I'm not sure which item God would like to answer first but it would be sweeter to aim for the same Rainbow's end with another glider.

Moonriver, wider than a mile, I'm crossing you in style someday.
Two drifters off to see the world. There's such A LOT OF WORLD TO SEE.
We're after the same Rainbow's end, waiting round the bend, my Huckleberry friend.
Moonriver and me. (#ALotOfEmotionsWhileTyping)

My evening prayer in a form of this classic song. I know you hear me Lord :)


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